Thank you for 20 followers


Hey guys ^^ thank you all for 20 followers :D. You all make me so happy to keep blogging about my life as a Christian woman. Everyday I have trouble and have a hard time but you guys motivate myself to keep blogging about god himself. I recently got my heart broken because I felt that since I’m not smart or pretty enough than no one would ever love me. This boy who I liked for a long time turned out to be married and very happy. I was extremely happy but also upset. Then I began to think about giving up on love and focus on loving others instead. It hurts a lot but I have a lot of problems and addictions of my own and I don’t wish to hurt anyone else with these problems. I forever love god first and maybe its best to be single and focus on him until old age ^^.









Life Update #4

My test went very well unfortunately the man I had my eyes on for a while is married. I am happy that he is forever but it hurts that most of my class mates are married and happy. I’m not really that smart or pretty either so that finding out that he’s married really hurts me. I will always treat him like a friend but sometimes I wonder when god will bless me with the godly husband that I always wanted. I’m trying to be patient everyday while also treating others nicely and always showing love. I will always be happy that others are married and happy but honestly what about me? I love god to my heart forever and he always comes first but when will my real godly man who loves god forever while also loving anime and video games like myself. I’m honestly trying to be patient and love him always but days like this hurt a lot. Guess I will try to be happy and focus on being aΒ Β  godly woman while also loving god and continue my studies as a sophomore in college.