Truth #16 Someone actually needs me out there!

So this past week I have been upset that people who I thought liked me didn’t even thought of me in such ways. I was hurt and also gave up on love.

After reading many Christian quotes about love I realized that god actually knows who my future boyfriend is and that I should wait and focus on work. That actually makes me happy because someone will actually love me which means NO MORE CRUSH’S!!!!!. I don’t care who they are or look like. Honestly I want them to fear god and know who he is. I cant wait to meet him ^^.

We both can spend time playing video games, watch many animes, maybe dance together and most importantly snuggle while reading the bible every morning and night :D. Now since I think like this I’m working extra hard now and actually feel happier now that someone needs me and I shouldn’t just give up because the one I thought loved me doesn’t even think of me :).

Thank you god for everything ^^. Please make sure we both are only focused on you forever :D.

Truth #15 God is all I need!

So it took me a while to decide but it’s best to be single so I can be closer and only pay attention to god.  It hurts a little but god is all I need and no one would love me like him :D. The only people who honestly loves me is my family,  god, and friends. I won’t be that stubborn single person. But instead be happy for others and help others more.  Even though I won’t have a wedding or more.  I won’t need it because all I need is god and he will always love me :D.


So I spent the whole day learning the whole meaning about crushes and what I learned was theirs a great meaning why its called a crush. Honestly if they loved you then they would:

  1. Make time for you
  2. Call or text first
  3. Show  that they are interested in yourself and mostly god
He  sadly did non of  these things. He is a great Christian man but I wish his Faith was big like myself. Meaning he will always talk about God during confos. He is still my best friend but it’s best to leave him alone because honestly I don’t think Godly thoughts around him at all. For now I will see if he even cares my absence while I focus on God more because after all he will always love me. They say to just be like bye but that’s not nice. You always need to treat others will love no matter what.
Even if he doesn’t love me that wont matter because I know God will always love me and I will just need to focus on him everyday meaning reading the bible and praying in the morning. While doing Godly things. I know God put him their for a reason but its best to leave if he doesn’t show any interest in liking me while I am wasting my time making the first move. Usally guys are suppost to just to see if they are interested. Even if he’s shy at least show me that you acutally liked my company. He was always mainly focused on school work and college which made me happy but I believe that’s all he need to focus on to be happy without me.
I’m kinda sad but I know God will always love me and I just need to focus on him forvever. Even if he gives me a Godly boyfriend. I still want to study the bible with and while also pray everyday!

Dark skin girls need to stop forcing people to be attracted to them


Today I was on YouTube and I saw a video about Dark Skin Girls. The person was basically saying that dark skin girls need to stop trying to force others to be attracted to them.  I decided to write this blog and give feedback from a dark skin girl’s point of view.

I do not believe that we as dark skin girls are trying to force others to be attracted to us, but it is more so of stop putting limitations on our beauty. Stop trying to discourage us and bring s down like being dark skin is disgusting.

The reason why I say this is because while growing up and even now I am always referred to as the dark skin friend, the black ass girl, the dark one and etc. Also when someone tries to give me a compliment they always say that you are cute to be…

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I am thankful for:

  1. God
  2. Watching funny game play videos
  3. Learning to move on and love god more
  4. Driving
  5. Sleeping
  6. Researching many interesting things about learning to let go
  7. Attempting to take my mythology test
  8. Eating Ice Cream
  9. Learning how to be popular on YouTube
  10. Renting two of my fav movies