Deuteronomy 6:5 NLT

Truth #17 Learning To Remind Myself That To Trust God With His Timing With Finding My Future Husband!


So Valentines Days is coming up and as of now my friends are preparing to spend that special day with their loved ones. No matter what I will always be happy for them because honestly everyone deserves to be happy! Earlier today on Facebook I saw one of my friends post about how wonderful her boyfriend is and how she wasn’t to marry him soon and he agrees. Now of course this melts my heart but also makes me sad as well. I am still learning to wait patiently but sometimes its hard because everyone else is happy with their soulmate. I know god loves me so that makes me happy. I also know that as of now he needs me to be close to him as possible. As of now I’m doing that but some days I just wish I can meet my future husband.

I love god so much and trust him as well so I plan to continue to wait while also paying attention to him not matter what. Sadly I might not get a bouquet of flowers or heart shaped chocolate candies for Valentines day from my future boyfriend. But it wont really matter because I have god and I know he’s working on someone who really needs me :).


So I spent the whole day learning the whole meaning about crushes and what I learned was theirs a great meaning why its called a crush. Honestly if they loved you then they would:

  1. Make time for you
  2. Call or text first
  3. Show  that they are interested in yourself and mostly god
He  sadly did non of  these things. He is a great Christian man but I wish his Faith was big like myself. Meaning he will always talk about God during confos. He is still my best friend but it’s best to leave him alone because honestly I don’t think Godly thoughts around him at all. For now I will see if he even cares my absence while I focus on God more because after all he will always love me. They say to just be like bye but that’s not nice. You always need to treat others will love no matter what.
Even if he doesn’t love me that wont matter because I know God will always love me and I will just need to focus on him everyday meaning reading the bible and praying in the morning. While doing Godly things. I know God put him their for a reason but its best to leave if he doesn’t show any interest in liking me while I am wasting my time making the first move. Usally guys are suppost to just to see if they are interested. Even if he’s shy at least show me that you acutally liked my company. He was always mainly focused on school work and college which made me happy but I believe that’s all he need to focus on to be happy without me.
I’m kinda sad but I know God will always love me and I just need to focus on him forvever. Even if he gives me a Godly boyfriend. I still want to study the bible with and while also pray everyday!

Truth #13 God Will Bless You When You Least Expect It

I just remembered when something dear happened to me causing myself to cry myself to sleep. I remember that I wanted to say happy Thanksgiving to my best friend that I loved but failed. I was hurt because I really wanted to say it but choose something more selfish. That night I feel asleep hurting and crying. Than that Sunday I think was when I got to actually get confidence to text him saying happy late thanksgiving. After that we talked for a  while and then he told me that he was ultra happy to see me that he actually wanted to hang out. It was just the two of us so I didn’t know if it was a date or just hanging out. But that didn’t matter because we had fun and talked about our future jobs. It was really fun and he even let me take home the rest of the pizza which I shared with my family :D. We are still best friends now but I’m happy that God let me see my best friend again :D.